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Sometimes you are your biggest obstacle Endless justifications Giving yourself permission to stay the same My self wants to stay the same because it's comfortable Our modern lives condition us, more than ever, to seek & expect comfort I've been the same weight for around 12 years Excluding my internship at Google where I gained 30+ pounds, lost it, & plateaued again I promise to tell that story in a future episode When I zoom out & think about those 12 years, I'm comfortable weighing 280 pounds Which sounds ridiculous to say out loud & publish on the web When I zoom in on the day to day I am uncomfortable being overweight When I was a kid I was worried I wouldn't be tall enough to ride a rollercoaster As an adult I'm worried that I'm too overweight to ride a rollercoaster So I have to ask my self, "why are you so comfortable being uncomfortable?" & "why are you protecting that short-term comfort from the long-term comfort?" It's nonsensical & this week my self-sabotage came to life in the form of not training jiu jitsu So I sat down to meditate, looking deeply into why I made these decisions & to see what I could learn about my self to overcome this form of sabotage in the future I have plenty of justifications for why I didn't go to class, like I told you I would We shipped a product update early Tuesday morning I felt weak after being sick the week before, losing some momentum We had a lot of meetings that required me to switch up my schedule & go to class at different times So I listened to my inner saboteur, didn't uphold the commitment I made in last week's episode, & I didn't go I also temporarily forgot why I'm doing all of this It's not to loose ? pounds, that's a small part of my bigger reason It's because I've committed to accomplishing the goal of going to Space If Elon Musk had texted me & said, "we have a ticket for you next week" I would not be able to go I'm getting ready now so I can go in the near future & I forgot that Instead... Support this podcast