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Frank Soonius is described as 'The Dream Driver'. You will hear his dramatic life story along with inspiration and advice to never give up on your dreams. Frank's book on the importance of living your gift is 'Trapped In A Dream' and can be found here: https://www.trappedinadreambook.com   Some of the content of the conversation covers some difficult subjects and experiences. Tracy can be contacted as follows: Website: www.tracykimberg.com Phone: 07928 154054 Facebook: www.facebook.com/Tracy.Kimberg.Counselling.Therapy.Coaching/ Linkedin: https://www.linkedin.com/in/tracy-kimberg-9564a3193/ Instagram: www.instagram.com/tracy_kimberg_hypnotherapist/ welcome to another episode of the waves of clarity. My name is Tracy Kimberg. I am a teenage therapist and a relationship expert. What'd you don't know about me is that I used to be a nurse as well. And being a nurse taught me that. Even when someone is incredibly ill and going through a very difficult time, physically their mental strength can pick them up and carry them through difficult times. And this is exactly why I decided to have a podcast where I can help you find that within you. If you listening. And you are in a difficult time in your life or going through some struggles. Then I want you to be able to listen to my podcast and find something within what I'm sharing that is going to help you realize that you have grit. You have resilience, you have incredible inner strength to overcome whatever it is you're facing. I'd like you to play a game with me quickly. Have you ever try to. Associate an, a word with someone maybe, um, imagine your partner or one of your children, or maybe your best friend, and to think what one word would describe them. Isn't it incredible how, even just by thinking of someone, you can actually put a word. That exactly frames their personality. And this is what I'm going to do today with Frank Soonius who's my guest. He me symbolizes courage and not just courage written in normal font, courage in capital letters. And I can't wait for you to listen to Frank story, Frank. Is the pivotal example of overcoming hardship and never, ever giving up on his dreams. I am so honored to have you here and I'd like you to please introduce yourself, um, tell people who you are and what brought you to this space where you are today. Well, I'm a Frank Sudanese. I live close by them and, uh, I was born a long time ago, more than 60 years. And that's always what I say. People start, stop asking when I was born in incident and, um, I was born high sensitive and, uh, yeah, brought me. I know now that that being, I, since it's a, it's a superpower, but that's only after 50 years, I discovered that it's your superpower. And I had to go, uh, A long way to find out that being sensitive is, is good enough. And you can go on with it and you have a superpower, but I didn't know that when I was born, I don't want to interrupt you too much, but some people might not know what high sensitive means. Can you explain that? Of course I can do it. If you feel too much, you hear too much. It gets too much. And in my case, I gave it all away. Okay. So tell me about this story that I heard. Um, we, you chose the title for today's podcast, which is put your heart in your dream. Um, which is a very beautiful title. I pick up that book by as if it was a book. Maybe this is the title for your next book. It's probably a lovely title. Tell your story. Yeah. Yeah. I can do it now a really, really short and really to the point. And I was, I was born. I sense that and how it did. I noticed it. When I was in school, uh, I always helped the children or who was bullied and how did I help them to put them in my team when we play soccer and then beat the bullies. And they helped me too, because I became really good in my sports because I had to do more than. I'd never had the good players around, but I had always the people who were picked on, but I love to help them and let them grow. And then we, we beat the bullies and I had a lot of friends and even the bullies. Started to think I can bid in the booty anymore because uh, Frank is going to be Darius. So that's why I noticed, and I'm going to also notice that when there was a, a little bit, like somewhere in the pounds, complete the loan, I'll always pick them and brought them home and nourish it to the, was it big, big duck? The duck story is also in my book and the rabbits and everything who was in need. I picked it up because I always thinking, I have to say that to make the long story short, I was trying to save myself. By doing this now I felt that I was different. I really felt that why is the world so hard? You know, can we do a little bit more laughing to the world? And so I thought I'm different, but that didn't know how different that was. And I went. It's all in my book. It's, it's, it's really funny. It's with the girls and the, and the, and the growing up stories. It's all different and different. This is good. I think different issue, you know, and it was still, I became a really good sportsman, um, because I thought if I am really good at something, people will. Not be so hard on me, you know, you know, you like me more. And I was always thinking, why is not everybody liking me? And, you know, I did my best. I tried harder and harder. Still it was, um, I think I was 35, 36. I was in the end of my basketball. Uh, I played in the first division and I was coaching to the, the national junior girls in Holland and a lot of teams and we always had success because I've got ramen rule make, make it a better chart. And they become a better basketball player. So that's easily now. And if they have the talent, it will come out because they feel, they feel good because they are better as a child. And everybody needs that, you know, to be good in something. And then you grow, everything is growing with you. You need to stay to stay up top. You know, if you have nothing. You think you are nothing, you know, but you have one thing or two things, and then it grows and it grows and grows. And I love it. All the disappointments I took with me in my room, I call it the ethic, my shuttles, I made a shutout and then I shared a world. I played everything. What went wrong? I played it in my room again. And then I succeeded. So I had two worlds, one shadow world. I'm on rebuilt. That's in, when I was 35, those worlds grow apart. I felt she wilt. I want it to go to my fence. You will. But the real world was now really ending on me, really hitting on me, really art and it all started. I was a research marketer. I was really good. And I was asked to do in a survey. Under, um, drug users who were using methadone as substitution of heroin. It's, it's called methadone. They gave me 80 persons to fines. And it was really hard to fight because they are living all over the place, homeless houses. So it was a really hard job. And I loved it. I love coming to the people, listen to the stories and write it down. But I made a big mistake. It was a really big mistake because when you're high sensitive, all the pain that came to me and I was thinking. After hearing a story of one hour, I'm going to save this girl. That's difficult. I'm going to save this girl. No worries. All those stories. Starting hitting on me. And I couldn't relax because even when I came home, I thought this girl, why is she using drugs? She's so beautiful. I have to do something. So it was interview number 28. When I heard a man saying that he was high up in the national bank of Holland, his name is Bob. I call him Bob, his name is different, but. Am I in that story is a common Bob and Bob told me in 10 minutes time, this story, and that, that hit me so hard. He was sitting in front of the tent, in the campaign in Spain when he sees his wife and four little children walk away anyways. It's always hard to tell this story, but you know, it says all the sweet things in ice creams and they're making jokes and are Honda, Tom, 50 meters away to the camp drink a short story, I guess Lincoln car comes around the corner and there was one big explosion. And 270 people in one minute died that day. And when he opened his eyes, there was nothing anymore. His wife was gone. Four children were gone, everything was gone. And he told me that in 10 minutes, even shivering now 25 years ago, because I always thought when you started using drugs, you're a little bit weak. And you know why you started using drugs? I had a, not a good few at that moment. And I started to cry. I said, that's why. Why Bob, why could not save somebody as beautiful as you are? Because I saw that it was a beautiful person. And I remember that he said his friend, he said, everybody tried. Everybody tried to comfort me and be there. But Frank, there were too many hours in the day, sort of hours, hour. She was alone. Any different. Give me the joints from the joint. He gave him something else. Then the heroin comes, he lost his house. He lost his job. And he lost everything. And now we're sleeping on the bridge in Amsterdam is 7,007,000 people are doing it. Why didn't you come to me? Just like the Dudley. I bring them to my bedroom bathroom and take care of him. He was gone. And then I started to notice that I was starting to get strange things happen to me. I think sometimes I couldn't even find my house because I was thinking too much of solving problems and they call it this association, they call it, you start to come in dissociation. I went to a psych. And the SAC said, stop. This is not work for you, Frank. You have to stop, but I want to finish it because now it's Frank. You know, I want to, I want to do it my own way, but to make the long story short, that's the part you probably hear. I ended up in a suicide, so. Sydney Australia. And someday you will see how it came up, come there, but that's it really, really straight story. But I ended up in an mental hospital in the city. I was charged. They gave me also a chart, what it looks like I got to be life in prison and. I had two suicide attempts. Then I was put on 24 hours suicides and I stayed there all together in isolation for 22 months altogether. And it was in the seventh week of me being in the isolation cell, the prison guard who was watching me already so long said to me, Frank. If I see somebody like you laying here on the ground, nothing in your room for seven weeks, never sleep only. I see you only sometimes watching, watching and to the floor again. And that was all he did. And I thought, what is wrong with this guy? I have to do something. He had the feeling and he had to do something. So he grabbed the paper, put it on the door. With a little pencil, small pencil, and it could cost him his job because you're not allowed because when a pencil I had already done everything with my risk, I had done stupid things already. That's why I started writing and I wrote alone, always alone, 30 pages. The second day I wrote. So living in Shondaland, one of the most beautiful stories I've ever written, because I would never be in that state of mind when I was there. So I sometimes try to go back to there, but it's still possible because I was go, I was, I was in a different time zone and then I started writing to the dream. The first part, and this guy was so good to give the papers to his psychiatrist who was treating me and he said, straight away, wow, this guy's not crazy. He's lost. So we adjusted my medications, throw it away because medication can be, can be deadly, can really be deathly. I wasn't such a high onto depressions. And from my major depressive illness, I was suffering from a major depressive illness. I was a patient. I was suicidal. And I came back, it's costed, I think for four and a half months, I was adjusted to the right medication. And I came back to life because so many people came to visit me good solicitors. They all try to help me, but it's all about money. So finally I took a really beautiful job. Fighter as a female. So it's a little bit of mistake, but she was crying every time she saw me. So I took her and put that was not smart because I had taken it something, somebody with more experienced, see for the, like a line that Indians in our trial, my trial was after eight months and she fought back like line and the jury. Yeah, hang June six, six was the hang jury. And then the judge helped the jury a little bit to make a decision. If you'd read the, my book, why did he do that? Why he shouldn't have said now six, six it's. Send them home, you know, because if you read what I've done, I asked the judge, why, why are you doing this to me? And in the end they found me guilty. And as for life imprisonment and Napoli system, what is the most strangest cases I have, I go to Europe. I go to a vacation in Europe for three months, and then I come back. I make a decision about this man, because something is wrong in this story, but he came back and he gave me 11 years and he said, it's such a beautiful man, but he did something really stupid. And he sends me to 11 years. And how was it? Shock shock. They put me straight away in the, in the, in the, in the 24 hour suicide. Watch again, let's start about treatment again. They took me on, on, on, on, in the difference. So in the, in the, in the, in the prison, but I had to go to a maximum security because 11 years is, is a high sentence. How was with murderer? I've seen many murders. Even myself, cellmate was murdered in front of me in 10 seconds. If he was, it was dead. That's the mentality in, in, in the jail. So finally they gave me a cell complete isolation. And there. I found myself, I went to Bible studies. People from prisoners fellowship can see me, Bobby Schuller, his father, Robert Schuller, came to Philly to visit me for an hour of power. And he gave me a Bible and started doing Bible study. And there I met during the Bible study. I met a guy in my fault either. And I didn't know where Michael was in for, but I found out that he was in for, they did 16 years for, it was better. He did 60 children and they found 16,000 it's photos of children. But he was also my way act because one day. He told me and I'm shivering. And after my legs, he told me the story about Samantha nights and you can all see it, then you can all find it on, on internet cement. And I disappeared in 86, I think, Australia on bono beach. And she never responded. No she's already gone for 40 years, but then during Bible study, Michael opened up to me and he told me the story that the cement, the story, because he wants to come clean with God. I hated Michael because I wanted to kill him the moment he told me that that night I even tried to kill myself because again, for the third time, because I thought if I live in a world, unless somebody comes in yourself, I told you. I kicked up a girl. I made photos. I did things with her and then I killed her. I don't want to be in a world like that, but I thought this story because they saw me on the camera and they thought that I was anxious and they were afraid. So they put me again in the isolation cell and died my hands and my legs again. Hi, Frank, you were so good. You were doing some well, what happened? I said, well, this guy told me this story. Okay. Well, Frank, there are so many stories. Don't believe everything was stalled, but the psychiatrist went to the police and told what I told her. And they went to the sheds where Michael was living and found photos of what Michael did with Scimitar nights on the floor. So they choose Michael in the jail with the murder of Samantha nights. But I didn't even know who sent it to my close. I've never been to her slowly. I never knew anything. So I was a hero. I became a hero because I saw one of them incredible, these appearances of this nine-year-old girl. So I was a hero, but I didn't know, you know, I told the story and, you know, the police came and the AFS gave to me and, you know, I told only what he told me and that was it. And on the nine o'clock two thousands, there was a call on the internet, on the Intercom Frank Baker stuff. Now. I thought we'd all be going to court again, my appeal was coming, so I was standing with one box, but all this was left of my life. Nothing was, everything was gone, but it was happy because all the brief things, the letters by my, my, my, my, my pages of my book, everything was in the little box and that was all was left for my life. And they opened the door and normally they get the shackles and handcuffs and you go to another cell or to a meeting with a solicitor. But this time they want to share those. As you give me a hug, she grabbed me. And she said in my ear, I said, what do you mean you going home? I said, what do you mean? She said, well, the plane is leaving in two hours. So we have to hurry. You have to sign here and we'll let you go wrote to his house, to the plaintiff who was already on the, on the. To go up on the runway, the insights. Yeah. I remember this beautiful thing. There was a little girl. I still have my uniform with our stripes and them, as you said, are you a prisoner? And I wanted to answer, but before I could answer, yes, he was that he didn't do it. They let him go. And she said, Oh, have a good sleep. Oh, everything will be all right. And they gave me a little bowl of dailies. I've never in my life. So I drank it and then fell asleep. And it's 24 hours to London on the plane. So I slept 30, 14, 15 hours. I slept because I was so tired and. When I arrived in London, they gave me a passport for a long event for them. And then I arrived for this and nobody knows I was going. So they called my mother and my sister and everybody was waiting because they were not expecting me. I had them. So they let me out after four years and three months and well, My life started straight away because I had to go to psychiatrist I'm on heavy medication, everything, but no, it was funny is that I walked somewhere in a, in a, in a shopping mall where somebody called my name frig. I said, are you, you gave me, you gave me a basketball lessons 10 years ago. And she was eight there. And now she was 18. And I said, Oh, how do you going to recognize me? You remind you are my hero. What are you doing? I said, I have so much in that. Or you should do what, something with basketball again. And Dennis, I said, well, I don't know about it. They're looking for a new tennis teacher at my club. You must be the new teacher. Leave me alone, please. Four hours, eight children. You can do that. Well, why not? I went to the court and there were eight little children, six, seven, eight years old. I did my best to good. And in three months time, I had hunted at 40 and I was the new teacher of the club. And I started my new life and nobody knew that I cannot have the hell, but it did deal a little child who I gave lessons so many years ago, she gave me a new heart because. Doing, this is really what I love to do. You know, I started, I did it for 15 years, myself. Again, I bought a, they gave me compensation money for jail, and I bought a little bungalow in nature. To come close with nature because I love nature too, to find myself and I've got beautiful. You can see that there. I have my own deer. I can speak with it there. And if you see it on Instagram, you'll love it. I really talk with a deer and you see his ears. Then I've got 40, 50 CTOs of him already. And. But then I saw Nick reach the man with no arms or legs. I saw him one day on the hour of power on the television. Now I'm a Christian, I'm a real good Christian. And I saw Nick and he spoke to me. He was speaking to 140 million people, but I thought he was speaking to me. And that day he wrote changed again my life, because. I stopped being a teacher. And it was a time for a lot of people because I said, I have to do something different. He spoke to me. He said, it's your moral obligation. If you have something to tell the world, Frank, you have to do it. And he spoke ass on two times life. And he even saw me in the, in crowd. And he even said, where is that book coming? Frank? That's all. Well, I'm waiting, I'm waiting Frank. We need that book. I said, well, it's coming. No, no, no, no, no, no. It's good. That's not a good answer. It has to come now. And so many beautiful things happened after death and it's yeah. It's amazing how. People can push your buttons. And now I call myself the train driver because I want to bring everybody back to that tree. They missed one day they had a dream. And most of all the responder drink forever. Now you percent will never live their dreams. And there is a research done in Australia and 92% of the people said if I only had done. What I wanted to do and that I sold as well. The book is coming now and it's in the prints stages. And so many beautiful things really happens television. Now, now I'm starting podcasts and I love it. I love it because. It's not important because you know, Nick, Nick told me a story that he's now asking 75,000 hours, you go to speak and he's getting it and you know what he's doing with it. He's got talent at 60 people thousand people give him food, medical care in Africa and Naipaul, and he said, you know how you sleep at night? When you know that 60,000 children have a full stomach tonight. And because of Nick, it's not my moral obligation. To go along with it and beat the dreams. Right. You know, I'm not a therapist, I'm not a trainer. Maybe I am, I'm a coach, but I'm a train driver because we all have dreams. But what you forgot is to put the hearts your three, and if you put a heart in your dream, nobody can stop you because it is your dream. And if there's money, a dream, you're lucky. But if there's nuts, You're also lucky because you're live. Well, Frank, that's such a moving and incredible share that you've just given so many people. And you know, what do you say after such a, something like that? There's nothing to read. I noticed that a few times that I'm in a room or on a stage when people don't have questions anymore day. Have to adjust that, that, you know, I'm not a magician, you know, I only want to be the train driver because you have a dream, but you have to lift your dream. And if you don't put a heart in it, you will never leave your dream. And it's your gift because we all have a gifts. And so many gifts goes away because. Nobody is give you that button to reset because we all need somebody or, you know, follows me because you never know who's going to give you an, the next push on your button to go to your next best chapters of your life. Because, you know, I mean a good chapter, but we all know when you know that it can change tomorrow. So it can change and you know, but you have to be prepared. I not prepared because when, you know, since you take too much, so sometimes you have to slow down because I, since they take too much, but now I want to have equal, you know, I want to give and I want to receive, and if that's imbalance. Know, I want to be in balance and it's not money or whatever. I don't care about money. It's all about find your gift. Find your gifts. You know, we all have one gift and one, you know, but if you don't find it and that's what I want to do, I want to be the driver. I want to put you back to the tree you want set, but you never lift and get out, but you have to do it yourself. What would you say to someone that's listening and that feels. Stuck in themselves, stuck in a situation stuck, um, in feeling like they don't know the next step, surround yourself with people. Who not Australia. I'd say that's that's for you. That's not for you. Find people who really listen to you. Who really, when you can, can share that story yet, when you say, ah, I don't feel happy and my boss finds people and sometimes you have to. Dick's really deep. And that's really hard for some people that find that guards, that prison guards who found me, who gave me a chance of life again, or give me the paper that a psychiatrist. How was you wrong? These guys. Okay. Which are that you have to reset your sometimes yourself, but you have to find somebody or something. That, that gives you that next push on your reset, but who said to me? Right. Desecrate idea. But so many people, when I said I stopped with Dennis lessons, I'm going to be something that's what for you, that's for you. That's not your, that's not your tribe. Find that person, maybe it's one person find your present guard. You know what? You have to start looking and then you start leaving because you need somebody who said to you, that's great ID. And even if they think, well, I don't know, let's still support you and say, listen, this is great because it is your dream who can decide about your dream. Nobody. Nobody needs support. We all need support. And for me it was okay. The next chance for life. And you never know, you never know who's going to give you the push. Exactly. You might already have the push. You just don't notice it. Exactly. So sometimes we are so caught up and that's why my program is it the during driver program, it's all about. The six steps, you know, it's, it's your purpose? It's your passion. It's it's it's all. They've got six piece. It's it's your paws. It's your, it's all about building yourself up again. It's it's like a car. The car needs all benzene all sometimes. You know, you have to take care of your car. Otherwise you stops. You have, you have to have trust in yourself. You have to build yourself up. And sometimes they're all the six piece are so low. Did you have to build them up again? And when there are six or seven? No, the average there, you see a little bit clearer and then. People start listening to you. And then, you know, you have to build yourself up again with positive people, healthy, uh, start becoming healthier and, and, you know, say, say more yes. To two things that are, I think that you think, Oh, that's a little bit difficult for me. And I'm telling you, listen, you will fail. You will fail. But only in failing. Yeah, you have to fail. It's like Denzel Washington. If you see that video fail big it's in my book. Fail big, please. And do this as quick as possible because when you were on 17, then you felt, uh, it's a little bit difficult, but still now try everything FL. Then you find what is real for you that you have to do it. Who cares you learn from failing? Really, really, really, it's easy now to say, you know, I, I came out, I was lucky, you know, that's why I say now it's not easy. It is really not easy. But use the steps you used steps, build yourself up again, but people find them and share your insecurity, your doubts. We all have, but doubt kills more dreams than failure ever did. Exactly. That's so important. You felt, you knew that was not for you, but there is so much else that is for you. And if you find it as quick as possible, if you're happy, everybody will happy because when you're happy, everybody will benefit from it. And you're not happy people not going to invite you to a, to a party over it, because if they go their shrink depress, Frank, they're not going to ask you when you are in your real self. Wow. The world is really a defeat, but it's not easy. It is not easy. And you don't have, you don't have to go my way, please. Don't, you know, it's there, but you never know where it is. It's going to be the it's going to be the Baker. It's going to be you going to be Tracy. You never know who's going to help you to the next steps of your life, the best steps of your best chapters of your life. But share it, share your doubts with people you trust and, you know, take that next step, you know, take that, share that you feel shit. How many times do we see someone who say, Hey, I'm doing well. Don't let me if your shit you're feeling shit, tell them we also always, Oh yeah, I'm fine. I'm fine. Because she tells me that they're not waiting for my shit. Don't give them a chance, give them a chance. And if they're good friends, I say, Hey, come on, Tracy, let's have a dog. And that's how it works. That's how it works with me. You know, don't go my way, please, please stop earlier and say, and take the help there is because there is a lot of help, but sometimes you think, ah, I wasn't research marketer. I was doing the talking with the druggies and I lost it. I was trying to help them and I lost myself. Yeah, I know that you, you told me earlier that you don't have your own children, but you've obviously had a lot to do with children, especially as a coach and, and you know, you know, kids, you know how they are and kids are more themselves when they not with their parents, our belief that's when you see the real. Child when, when they not in that surrounding of, in, at home, um, what would you say to parents that are battling to get their child motivated? To believe in a dream? Because a lot of children, I think don't have a dream. They, um, they just float. And I think it's so important for a child to have a dream and to, and to believe that that dream can come true. So what do you think, um, parents can do to help their children believe in them? I love this question and this is, this is really it's this you're so spot on. It's so many times when I give you an example. The boy goes to soccer. He's not that good. And he scores a beautiful goal and he comes home making dinner and he runs inside the new, messy, and the, and the mother don't even look at them. You play in the, in, in, in, in 17. She don't know what she did. And she crest that board in one remark. She should've said, Whoa, Whoa, Missy is born. You seen him play soccer and he is playing in the 17 of the club, but that doesn't mean that is not the new Messi. He's a different messy, there's only one messy. And he is blessed by being a good player, but your child can be the next, whatever you want, if you put it in him. So don't really think twice. What'd you say to a child when you on your phone and your job comments scored the winning goal, that you're too busy and say, Oh man, yeah, invest in your child. And if he wants to become whatever he wants to become. That there is a possible, he will be the best, you know, and if it's not that there are so many other beautiful things, you know, I've got so many people. When I give tennis lessons, somebody come very unrealistic to my tennis. Hey, look at my girl issues goods. And after an hour, It comes to me. Do I have to tell him? I said, well, we need to have a talk. And then I'm honest. Normally a trainer will say, well, that's 250 for half season tennis lessons and you know, I'll take the money. I never said that. I said after 20 minutes, I can see if somebody can do something with a bowl. Yes or no. You have bull feeling or you don't have both. It's so easy. I'm always honest. Listen, you can be caught in so many things, but Dennis will not be one of them. If you likes it real and displayed with 164, uh, players are starting and only one can win. Are the other ones loses? They're really good, really good itself. You know, nobody's a loser, nobody's a winner. We are all chooses. We can all choose that. Made the choice a little bit. When you're young, if you see that he has no talent with a ball, tennis is going to be really, really hot, but is rugby. There is so many beautiful other sports. If you have no boat feeling, Dennis is really hard. So I'm honest. I'm always honest, you know, take him to repeat, take him to something else. There are so many beautiful things where it could be the number one, you know, if you're posted in one thing, Exactly. I mean, if they not the next, um, um, John McEnroe, whoever, then at least they learning other skills in that it's like team sports, spirit, and you know how to be a good loser, how to stand up when you've lost. So there's lots of other skills that they can learn even. Yeah, stop hitting your head against the wall. I want to be a good tennis player. If you have no feeling for that small bowl, there are seven, maybe the best rider, maybe it comes poetry and he's going to be happy. And, you know, be honest, be honest from the start. I'm not as other tennis teachers are always said straight away. Listen. This has gotta be really hard to become a real good tennis player. It's not the mind I tell them honestly, and they're going to be happy with somebody else, something else. And there are still, I had children who couldn't play tennis for 10 years. They were in my lessons and that's fun because I can still get a lot of fun. That's DACA. I could give so much fun, but you're not going to become a tennis player. I love the question about why I love the question. It goes that's that's that's that's not. Your question is all about. Yeah, exactly. Exactly. Um, tell me, when is your book going to be out well, swept in your dream, man is titled, so, you know, I'm just like all the other people who have to buy my book. I'm always thinking, is that good? Enough must have changed a little bit. They're just like, no, we're all the same, you know, I'm no different than somebody else. You know, some people are really good to me. You go into it straight away. I wish I was like that. So I'll be honest with you. It's here, it's in the search stage of layout. I'm going to send it the way this is. This is the last control because you pushed my button. Send that in Frank, and I'm going to make you accountable. I'm going to check up on you. I want you to send me a photo of the thing in the envelope stamp on offered. I love it. I love it. All have to do the things you are doing that to me because I also need still, you know, that's why I follow everybody because you never know where the best next push comes in. Now we all need that push to the next level. You do it to me. I do it to you sometimes. And somebody on the street or on under the bridge, who's homeless can give you next fish. Bush, treat everybody. That's that's my motto enough, treat everybody isn't as a human being as the same person, because we are all after all made out of love. And that is what makes us the same. Thank you so much for listening to this episode with me, and I hope you enjoyed it. Please send me some feedback. Let me know what you think you can tag me in your comments on Instagram, on Facebook, on LinkedIn. Um, and you can relisten to this. I have loaded it also onto Facebook. 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