About

Ep15 I had planned since the beginning to have my mom on the show at some point. First, I had to see if she'd do it. Second, we had to get really vulnerable at the microphone. This was a tough interview. Ooof! My mom asked me a deep question at the end of the episode. I answered truthfully at that moment. But today, after editing our recording I felt the tug I had to tug out of my red heart.  So here it goes. Mom, since the day you introduced me to mama, she has never once said anything positive about you to me. I never understood why she'd do that to her own daughter. I fell rock bottom a few years ago. A few months later mama calls me to tell me that she had been praying for me to get back with my ex-husband. That one hurt. I felt confused, anger and betrayal of trust.  I realized that what she was doing to my mind had become a game of tug of war between the two people who love me most. And I felt it in every blood cell I carried and have been carrying for a long time. No matter what I've never allowed mama's nonsense to penetrate through my skin. I loved mama, you know I did, but I loved you more. Throughout your journey and I have felt so much pain. Your pain and mama's pain. And although they were never really mine, I have been storing the emotions that come with pain because I did not know how to let them go. I tugged and pulled out that old, heavy,  dark and lonely feeling string out of my red heart today.... and let it go. Looked at it, thanked it and then, let it go.    WHY DOES MOM GET TO CELEBRATE FATHER'S DAY? Every year, since ever, my sister and I would include our mom on the Father's Day festivities by wishing her, just like dad a Happy Father's Day. She's been there taking on both roles since I could remember. And, she deserves it! Love, La Cosita Chiquita De La Casa De Mami xox