Miscellaneous
PTSD: My Other Playmate PTSD. I'd like to say I didn't see that one coming, but that'd be a lie. Similar to bipolar disorder, I think I've had some nugget of this following me since my youth. But the shit I endured during my stay in the Marines helped it come to dark fruition. PTSD can happen to anyone who's survived something they weren't always sure they would Now, I'm not going to dig into a deep look at PTSD. I can't. I only know a certain amount and I only know what my experience of it has been like. The rest I learn from movies, documentaries and hearing the stories from others who've popped out the other side of some hell. The key thing I wanted to shed some light on, was that the vets who might be hesitant to pursue attainment of their rightful compensation should go about doing it ASAP. If you got fucked up somehow while serving, you probably have some money owed you. The way I look at it, the government will have absolutely no problem finding some way to spend the money that you felt wasn't worth securing, should you ignore or downplay the importance of going after it. Go get what's yours. If you find you have a problem accepting it, then gift your proceeds to some vet or donate them to any other righteous cause you feel is worthy. But don't let the government spend it for you. You already know how much of that can play out. I'd rather spend it my way. The episode above isn't just about PTSD though I sort of bled into a description of how my head works, in relation to PTSD, and how I feel it can still bring me bullshit, the fault being all mine. I have a way of being that tends to still bring people into my world who get a wrong impression of what I'm about, or what I can do for them. They seem to expect miracles from me. Or they simply want me close at all times. Friends to the end. Something I do with just about no one. This isn't their fault. It's an energy I put out and often feed into when I can't contain my own excitement. I can give the impression that we're gonna be something big together, without first doing my due diligence when vetting a new partner or opportunity. This creates painful partings and sometimes bad feelings, when I want nothing but the opposite to be true When you're an Outsider, you must carefully make your case for whatever it is that you're pursuing and how that process looks, so people can clearly see their standing within the plan. That's only being fair to them. However, when two Outsiders meet, which happens to me constantly, I feel we both can be blinded to certain facts, because we each want the plan to succeed so badly. But I prefer to focus on only my part in these mishaps, making sure I get better at not recreating them, saving all involved a lot of pain. I find, even after all this time, that's it's not always easy to achieve. And I wish I could improve faster. Can you relate? Subscribe To AB Podcast! Sponsors: Family Network Chiropractic in Kingston, NY: The only providers of NSA Chiropractic in the Mid-Hudson Valley Maximum Results Fitness w/ Mike Romano: Online Training with Individually Customized Support Key Points: I'm a Marine Gulf War Vet (1991) Veterans Disability is not the same as Social Security Disability The powers that be say you can't have both benefits at the same time. Bullshit. You can totally have both simultaneously. I tried once to get VA Benefits using the Disabled American Veterans (DAV) but got turned down I had to bet a lawyer to win my Social Security Disability. I would not have won my case without him If you DO get a disability lawyer, make sure they only get paid if you win, as was the case with my lawyer It seems I have some level of PTSD, which I manage right alongside my bipolar-prone potentiality My version of PTSD seems to be one focused on keeping the world at a distance